life

birthdays are so important to me. i dont care who it is your birthday should be special. last year wa the worst one if had, for numerous reasons. and this year i give up. ive tried to make it good but it doesnt matter what i say or do it just tends to suck. everyone is fighting or cant be in the same room two of my best friends still hate each other and it sucks, cause my birthday is coming and i dont know what to do. youd think they would suck it up and get along for one evening for who i thought was a best friend, but no. they cant they have to make my life hell. so i have sat and thought for many many hours on what to do, and last year keeps coming back to mind. so i still dont know. and its come down to it wher because of my friends i can not have a party. because people wont come or a fight will start something i shouldnt have to deal with at my birthday, and that really gets to me. i would sit in a room with the two people i hate for a friends birthday, i would throw a fail surprise party where everything goes wrong for a friend, i would almost do anything tomake them happy. all year round i try to make them happy, and even at my party i still try to make them happy and yet they cant do the same for me on one day out of three hundred and sixty five? i just dont know what to do anymore.